* โง *ยฐ You were my conscience, so solid, now you're like ๐ฌ๐๐ฉ๐๐ง, We...
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Nov 05, 2026
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*ใใโงใใใใใใใ*ยฐ
You were my conscience, so solid, now you're like ๐ฌ๐๐ฉ๐๐ง,
We started drowning, not like we'd sink any ๐๐ช๐ง๐ฉ๐๐๐ง.
ใยทใยทโโทใยฐ*ใโธยทใใ
[A CoC-related solo.]
Tw // drink mention, self - deprecating thoughts, violence mention.
You were my conscience, so solid, now you're like ๐ฌ๐๐ฉ๐๐ง,
We started drowning, not like we'd sink any ๐๐ช๐ง๐ฉ๐๐๐ง.
ใยทใยทโโทใยฐ*ใโธยทใใ
[A CoC-related solo.]
Tw // drink mention, self - deprecating thoughts, violence mention.
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You stare down your cup of tea, watching the leaves drift around inside the green liquid. Astraeus rests their chin on the kitchen counter, allowing you your space yet still being present.
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Your throat aches from the angry, stressed howls youโd let out just a few minutes beforeโyouโd made tea to calm yourself down, give yourself a chance to breathe.
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But you still feel heavy. Like your whole body is holding its breath, in time with the world, waiting to rip itself apart at the seams.
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โAm I making the right decision, Astraeus?โ Your voice is quiet, and you definitely sound like youโre about to break down.
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The silver chimera tilted their head to the side, looking at you. Maybe right through you. They knew absolutely everything about you, and you knew absolutely nothing about them. A static sigh escapes their throat.
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โIs th-ere ev-er a ri-ght dec-isi-on?โ
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No, there isnโt. You both know that. You can sense the danger, almost. A sixth sense handed to you by your Zoroarkian soul. That prickling at the back of your neck, the hissing in your ears.
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A small Zorua steps through the forest, upon a trail shrouded in darkness. Itโs as blind as a Sligoo, yet it still walks. Its ears prick up, it listens intently. The forest makes not a sound. No birds, no insects. Even the Kricketune are quiet on this night.
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Tw // animal injury mention (metaphorically)
Its heart is heavy. It can feel the danger lurking around every corner. Yet instead of turning back, fleeing to the safety of its den, it takes another step forward, andโ
Its heart is heavy. It can feel the danger lurking around every corner. Yet instead of turning back, fleeing to the safety of its den, it takes another step forward, andโ
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๐๐๐ผ๐.
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Tw // animal injury mention (metaphorically)
A trap snakes itโs way around that tiny red paw, closing tightly. It howls out, yet not a creature stirs to help it. Where is itโs mother?
A trap snakes itโs way around that tiny red paw, closing tightly. It howls out, yet not a creature stirs to help it. Where is itโs mother?
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Tw // animal injury mention (metaphorically)
Itโs so dark. Every rapid, panicked movement causes the fanged jaws of the wire trap to dig deeper into itโs delicate flesh.
Itโs so dark. Every rapid, panicked movement causes the fanged jaws of the wire trap to dig deeper into itโs delicate flesh.
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๐๐ฆ๐ญ๐ฑ! ๐๐ฆ๐ญ๐ฑ!
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It howls.
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But no help comes. Not itโs mother, not itโs father.
No one is around to help itโฆ and it cannot help itself.
No one is around to help itโฆ and it cannot help itself.
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A bug trapped in a spiderโs web. A fox in a trap. A mouse cornered by a cat.
Youโre those things. Youโre that fox.
Youโre those things. Youโre that fox.
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Down to those individual strands of DNA, right?
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Down to those individual strands of DNA, right? You stare down at your green tea, small leaves swirling endlessly in those green depths.
You can see your face reflected in the liquid; caged and trapped within the confines of the cupsโ edges.
โDo I have a choice here?โ
You can see your face reflected in the liquid; caged and trapped within the confines of the cupsโ edges.
โDo I have a choice here?โ
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You speak those words to yourself.
No, you donโt. Not really. Not if you want to be normal.
No, you donโt. Not really. Not if you want to be normal.
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โYou al-way-s hav-e a ch-oi-ce. Ev-en if itโs no-t go-od one-s.โ
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Astraeus is right, of course. They always are. Arenโt they? You sigh.
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โI know.โ
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Yet your choice? Did you really make the right one? That desperation, that want to be normal. Please. Furless, clawless, fangless.
A normal human being. Sure, youโve acquired some nasty scars, and some trauma. But you? Youโd look entirely human.
A normal human being. Sure, youโve acquired some nasty scars, and some trauma. But you? Youโd look entirely human.
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Tw // violence
A snarl creeps across your fanged face. You slam your claws into the counter, swiping it across the surface areaโsending the cup flying to the floor with a ๐๐ง๐๐จ๐.
A snarl creeps across your fanged face. You slam your claws into the counter, swiping it across the surface areaโsending the cup flying to the floor with a ๐๐ง๐๐จ๐.
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A snarl creeps across your fanged face. You slam your claws into the counter, swiping it across the surface areaโsending the cup flying to the floor with a crash.
Hopefully that one wasnโt important. Your eyes glitter with rage, terror. Thereโs no backing down now.
Hopefully that one wasnโt important. Your eyes glitter with rage, terror. Thereโs no backing down now.
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You were taught to never back out, never give in, choose one path and stick with it.
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๐๐ผ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฝ๐๐ฟ ๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐, ๐ฟ๐๐.
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Y-you hadnโt called yourself that in a while. But that self-deprecating thought only served to anger you more. Astraeus has moved out of the way by now, waiting; watching. They do not wish to get involved, and risk injury.
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Youโre a monster when pushed too far. Youโre a monster even when youโre not. Your lips curl up, revealing those flashing, blood-stained fangs.
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Heart pounding. You feel trapped, but thereโs no where to go. No one to turn to.
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No turning back the hands of time; the minute hand ticks, the hour hand tocks; itโs as if you can see that little timer counting down. Four days. Four days until you rest your fate in the claws of an organization that would probably love nothing more than to study you.
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Youโre a genetical anomaly. A scientific ๐ฎ๐ข๐ด๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฑ๐ช๐ฆ๐ค๐ฆ, thatโs what Colress had told you. Thatโs what had been said over and over. By other versions of yourself, wasnโt it? It hurt to hear.
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You werenโt a masterpiece. You didnโt even want to be an anomaly.
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Tw // Violence mention .
Seafoam hues bore into the wall, and angry tears stream down your cheeks. You want to bite, crush, kill. Something to distract yourself, something to make yourself feel better.
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Seafoam hues bore into the wall, and angry tears stream down your cheeks. You want to bite, crush, kill. Something to distract yourself, something to make yourself feel better.
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Make yourself feel better and prove that you donโt deserve the โgiftsโ, the life youโve been given? Are you really willing to risk that?
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Something in your heart, your soul, screams at you to wait. To stop this.
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YOUโVE SEEN THE SIGNS. YOUโVE SEEN THEM IN THE STARS, THE MOON, THE WOMANโ
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YET STILL YOU SIT HERE.
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๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.
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You beg for it to stop. You can see the hearts of everyone, their intentions. Are they pure, are they monstrous? Rotting, decayed, behind soft, appeasing smiles?
Rainbows to the deepest blacks.
Rainbows to the deepest blacks.
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Yours would be a deep black, youโre sure. Because itโs not about the power, itโs about the person.
Youโve seen her. Astraeus saw her. They relayed the information to you.
Youโve seen her. Astraeus saw her. They relayed the information to you.
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That woman is up to something, and you know itโs not good. ๐๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ด ๐ข ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ช๐ค๐ฆ๐ต๐ข๐จ, ๐ช๐ฏ๐ค๐ญ๐ถ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ญ๐ช๐ง๐ฆ.
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Including your safety.
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You wouldnโt have a lot of chances to prevent bad things from happening. You wished Venus wouldnโt go with you. You wished sheโd stay, be safe. You can do this alone. You SHOULD do this alone.
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Yet she comes with you. Sheโs yours, and youโre hers. Thatโs how itโs always been, hasnโt it?
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And not even a kind-eyed, devil woman from Hoenn can prevent that.
Not her organization, not their distrustful words, not her tainted heartโฆ
Not her organization, not their distrustful words, not her tainted heartโฆ
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๐๐ก๐ ๐๐ฅ๐จ๐๐ค ๐ญ๐ข๐๐ค๐ฌ ๐๐จ๐ซ๐ฐ๐๐ซ๐, ๐๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐จ๐ฑ ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฏ๐๐ฌ ๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ ๐๐๐ง.
