#taekookau Given the opportunity to travel to the past, Taehyung...

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#taekookau

Given the opportunity to travel to the past, Taehyung gives up his memory in order to fix things with Jungkook.
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– time travel
– HAPPY ENDING
– social media & written
– it’s a little sad 😁
– small details are important
- time stamps are not important unless stated otherwise

– book passages won’t have filtered pages bc i know it’s hard for some people to read over

ok let’s start ⏳
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The table almost falls over with Jungkook’s force while standing up. His socks cause him to almost slip, and his mother curses him for running inside the house, but he doesn’t care.

His father is already heading for the main door, breaking the first task the book gave him.
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“Dad, stop! I’ll open!” Jungkook shrieks and steps in front of the older man. “I got it.”

His father sends him a weird look and begins to nod slowly. Without saying anything, he turns around and goes back to his office, where he probably is unpacking.
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The ridiculousness of the situation should not make him this nervous. The simple idea of a book knowing so much is, in fact, scary. What if it’s true? What if this man actually traveled through time in order to save their relationship?

Jungkook opens the door.
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“Hi!” a tall boy greets with a beautiful boxy smile.

Jungkook’s face breaks into a furious blush. His bunny socks become embarrassing and his heart pounds against his chest.

“Hi, how may I help you?”

“I saw your family just moved in. I brought you some welcome cookies.”
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Fainting and screaming are a perfect combination of what Jungkook wants to do right now. His eyes fall over to the calendar on the wall. A bright, red “twenty-seven” flashes him.

“Thanks,” he croaks out. “I’m—uh, Jungkook.”

He smiles, “I’m Kim Taehyung. Nice to meet you.”
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Just like Taehyung stated in the book, the universe is on their side. The weather feels like a tickle on the chin; soft and reassuring. With the way the sunlight leaves kisses on his face, Jungkook breathes in—something he hasn't done ever since he found Evermore.
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His reason for moving here was never to find a boyfriend, and funnily enough, he can imagine his other reality self saying this as well. It sounds like another of his lies, those "I don't care about being single" deceptions.

"Hey," Taehyung greets as he walks up to him.

"Hey!"
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Taehyung doesn't move in for a hug, not like Evermore said. His hands are pocketed inside his jacket, with a nervous smile on his face. Jungkook questions if /he/ should be who goes in for the hug, but even with the first step towards him, Taehyung points down the path.
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"We'll go down there. There's a bigger park this way." Taehyung's hands move around as he explains, but Jungkook is more focused on acting as if he knows nothing about today.

"I'll follow you anywhere," he says. Taehyung flashes a smile, tilts his head to the side. Very pretty.
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"I'll be your tour guide today, Jeon."

The back of his body neglects the light from the sun, creating a halo around his body. It makes him stand out, brighter and way more refreshing than the natural light. Truth is, the light of the sun will always find an angel to kiss.
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Kids play in the side of the street, others bike from side to side, house to house. Jungkook makes sure to keep up with Taehyung's quick strides. He talks purposely, nothing unimportant coming from his mouth. He tells Jungkook about the nearest bus stop, the best markets.
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Taehyung, just like Jungkook, carries a bag. Taehyung's hangs from his right shoulder, while Jungkook's dangles from his left. The book inside bumps with his hip, and Jungkook ignores it, promises himself to not take it out unless Taehyung is looking away.
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Bringing the book is surely not ideal, but everything he must know lays inside. What if Jungkook misses something important? He doesn't understand how time travel works, but one thing is for sure, the old version of this book must be here somewhere, and they must not collide.
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"What are you thinking?" Taehyung asks. Jungkook's already widened eyes fall on his neighbour's quirked eyebrow. "Are you nervous?"

"I'm never nervous," Jungkook says. A pumped chest is supposed to protect him, but it only proves Taehyung even further.

"It's fine if you are."
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Meeting new people, for him at least, is as simple as unlocking a door with a hair clip. It will take a while, he might fail for the most part and bend the top of the clip, but by the second try he'll be able to walk inside.

The book, however, causes catastrophe in his mind.
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It's nothing like a grocery list. This is not some type of "daily routine" task you can simply cross out once done, or leave for the next day to do incase the sun went down a little too fast.

Being aware of what is to come is ten times scarier than not knowing anything at all.
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The right word is "fear", because Jungkook is not nervous, not at all. In fact, he's petrified over falling on a stone and cursing his overwhelming future. This second chance they have is a little too late on the race. Jungkook cannot give it up just yet, even if he's terrified.
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"I'm really not," Jungkook replies. "Are you?"

Evermore said Taehyung felt like he would faint the whole time they walked beside each other. It said his hands rained with sweat, so he would try not to touch Jungkook at all. "A nervous wreck" was written and underlined.
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But when Taehyung says "I'm not nervous at all" to Jungkook, he questions if maybe he skipped a page, because it's true. Taehyung doesn't look nervous at all.

At least not yet.

He's not wiping his hands on his jeans as said. He stares right at Jungkook's eyes with confidence.
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"That's good," Jungkook comments and looks ahead. "I'm not someone anyone should be nervous with."

"Depends what type of nerves you're talking about." It depends, yet Taehyung feels none. Jungkook is the only one trembling here. "Come on, let's have fun."
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A million ideas fly through Jungkook's mind, but not one tells him to move, to /react./ He probably looks ridiculous sitting there, phone in hand and bag hugged against his chest.

Taehyung's head tilts to the side. Jungkook feels like he's choking and running out of breath.
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The blonde was already quite defining. It made his skin glisten like pixie dust. Everything about a golden haired Kim Taehyung was bound to be compared to an expensive painting.

Now, with dark hair contouring and sharpening his face, Jungkook believes he's a more of a sculpture.
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"What?" the older boy questions. He takes a few steps closer, until he's standing above Jungkook, staring down at his sitting position. "Is it not good?"

Jungkook's lips fall open, a stutter reflecting on his jittering hands. Taehyung frowns and runs a hand through his hair.
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"I think it's way too light. The guy said it will fall and become darker, but," and he stops talking, only to pout again.

"No, Taehyung." Jungkook scrambles to his feet, all while shaking his head, looking like madman. "It looks—looks really good. I promise."

"You like it?"
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Jungkook nods and raises a hand, only to flinch and bring it back down. He's not sure if he's allowed to touch him, not like this at least. Sure, they played around the pool and splashed water at each other. As well as they push one another whenever they go out for a walk.
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Touching hair—flickering the dark strand behind his ear or even lifting it in order to gain access of his forehead—can be seen as a new step up the staircase. Jungkook isn't sure if that's where they are just yet.

Evermore states Taehyung fancies him, but how much?
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Taehyung raises his own hand and runs it through his hair. He buries his hand inside and jolts it up and down, making him look like an excited puppy.

"It's softer," he says. Long fingers wrap around Jungkook's wrists, and his arm is lifted, for the tip of his fingers to touch.
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So much overthinking for nothing. Taehyung allows him to caress his hair, allows him to smile and comment about how different it is, how much healthier it looks.

"I like it," Jungkook comments. "It suits you. Even so, my opinion is not important."

"Of course it is. It's you."
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How do you begin to explain the way Jungkook loses sense of mind? His eyebrows furrow, lips become round with timidity.

There's a perfect beat that goes alongside his drumming soul. He could probably compose a melody by using the same rhythm of his heart on a piano.
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"Well," he begins to whisper, even adds a snort to make it less intimate. "You look really beautiful." Eyes casted down, he looks up.

A wide smile paints itself on Taehyung's face. He elbows Jungkook playfully and nods over to the door. "Thanks, Kook. Ready to go?"

"Yeah."
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He's not sure if Taehyung's reaction is what he expected. Truth is, he doesn't really expect anything beside a good time with his neighbour. The only reassurance he has is the book, but even with the words printed on the page, he continues to question everything.
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If there is something Jungkook should be sure of, as for now, would be his own flustered mind. He needs to ask Taehyung a few questions, those that include "are you a writer?" because everything Jungkook has read so far reminds him of a nice, warm cup of tea; poetic.
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Twenty-nine year old Taehyung says love is what they felt as soon as their gazes met. It might not feel like it right now, but Jungkook will wait. All he searches for is a sign, one that lets him now it's all going according to the plan. He believes he got half of it right now.
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Like any other hangout, Taehyung walks him home. Today the sun continues to be on the sky, barely starting to hide in order to give them some privacy. Jungkook stands before his home, ready to head inside.

"Thank you for accompanying me," Taehyung says from behind.
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Jungkook plays with the house keys while smiling, nose scrunching cutely. "No problem. Thank you for, um, inviting me."

Taehyung chuckles, moves forward. He looks up at him from the bottom of the three steps, one hand inside his pocket, while the other holds the concrete pole.
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"Why are you nervous?"

"I'm not?"

"You are," Taehyung laughs, points at him. "Your eyes are round like the first time we went out. They're glassy."

Jungkook scoffs, rolls his eyes. "That makes no sense. You make no sense. It's the contact lenses. They make my eyes look weird."
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"Never said weird," he mumbles. "I'll see you tomorrow?"

"Yeah, sure," Jungkook says while already turning around to unlock the front door. He waves goodbye and steps inside. "Goodnight, Taehyung."

Taehyung raises his hand and smiles widely while saying, "Sweet night, Kook."
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Jungkook puts down his phone and takes a deep breath, rubbing both hands on the top of his jeans. Taehyung bites onto his muffin and nods at something Sungmin tells him.

Jungkook doesn't care.

"Sorry to interrupt," he mumbles softly, "but I need to head home. It's urgent."
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Sungmin stops talking to look over at him. He points at Jungkook's unfinished croissants and questions if he would like to take them home.

"It's alright, thank you. It was nice to meet you." He throws his back over his shoulder and stands up. "Bye, Taehyung."
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Taehyung flashes him a worried look, which Jungkook ignores as soon as it appears. He doesn't need anyone worrying about him. His worries are preferably kept inside a jar, with a ship inside, no water present to drown him.

"Jungkook, hold on," Taehyung calls from behind.
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He follows him until the front of the cafe, hand in hand with Sungmin, who watches from behind his shoulder. He's a bit smaller than Taehyung, maybe one centimetre less than Jungkook.

"If you need anything text me, alright?"

"Yeah, you too." He means it, but doesn't feel it.
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As much as he would love to help Taehyung, he knows that he failed for the most part with the book. Jungkook's head separates Evermore with this Taehyung he acknowledges daily. They're complete different people.

Evermore is shy, poetic and inspirational. This Taehyung isn't.
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/You don't know him enough,/ he tells himself, which is true. He hasn't been able to question Taehyung with the list Jungkook has prepared throughout the days.

But knowing /he/ should be who makes Taehyung smile hurts like a stab on the stomach, dagger left there until he cries.
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He wants to be happy for him, because as Evermore said, he can recreate this as he wishes. He could date someone else right now and then wait for Taehyung to come along, because no matter what they do, life will find a way around them, meaning they have /time./
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If they have all the time in the world, then why does Jungkook feel like the sand clock is ticking louder than a battery one could? Every new drop of sand has him crawling on the ground.

In another reality Taehyung was happy because of /him./ Sadly, right now it is not his turn.
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The bag flies towards the same direction the wind blows on the leaves. Jungkook’s sneakers are loud on the pavement, his shirt almost feels like a cape, filling up with wind inside, making him look like a little balloon inflated with air. Today he dressed as simple as possible.
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Taehyung did the same. They’re going to the pond, there is no need for crazy outfits that will stick to their bodies after heading for a swim.

Taehyung stands up from the sidewalk and pockets his phone, then lifts his own bag. “Ready?” he asks.

“If you are.”

“I always am.”
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A red and blue bike sit at the front of Taehyung’s house, the ones they always use. As usual, Jungkook chooses the blue one.

They bike off with the uncomfortable weight of their bags, neither using backpacks because they refuse to use a different sack.
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They definitely are soulmates when it comes to stubbornness.

It takes twenty minutes or so to arrive. The bikes are left hidden behind trees, but the adventure doesn’t end there. They sneak through the never ending green, jump over some flowers they don’t want to ruin.
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“Are you finding a good place to leave me?” Jungkook teases in order to lighten the mood. “I don’t think I’m ready to pass away.”

“Don’t be ridiculous,” Taehyung laughs. He slaps Jungkook on the arm and takes his wrist, pulling him to walk faster. “Come on, we’re almost there.”
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That they are, because not even a few seconds later, they arrive to the rays of the sun opening a refreshed pond just for them.

Jungkook has lived in many places, but today he finally acknowledges how beautiful the world can be if he gives it a chance.

“We can get in?”

“Yes!”
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Taehyung drops his bag and takes out his towel, then the sunscreen. He pours a bunch on his hand and slaps it onto his face. Jungkook snorts and takes out his own, remembering what Evermore told him.

By the time Jungkook is done with his sunscreen, Taehyung is already swimming.
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Jungkook takes a few pictures first, then one of Taehyung because he kindly asked. Jungkook throws off his large shirt, keeping a tight, black, long sleeve on, plus his swimming trunks.

Taehyung, on the other hand, doesn’t have a shirt on. He doesn't get burned easily.
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Jungkook is also scared of weird animals touching his skin. He really doesn’t need a leach getting stuck on his nipples, thank you very much.

He jumps into the pond and sighs deeply, allowing the singing of the water to calm him down. He needed this, needed to take a swim.
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“You look better,” Taehyung comments. He floats on his back, eyes closed.

“So do you.”

“I’ve been fine, though. You were a little off yesterday.”

Jungkook knows he probably wasn’t fine. After all, he went out with a boy he wishes to be saved from, but Jungkook can’t say this.
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“Hey, Tae,” Jungkook asks and lifts his head from the water. “May I ask you something?”

Taehyung nods and moves around, swims a little bit closer, leaving a respectful space between them.

“Do you write?”

Taehyung’s eyes widen immediately, and he stutters out his confirmation.
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“I do,” he repeats, now louder. “How did you know?”

“I guessed.”

“I’ve never told anyone,” Taehyung says. He looks away with a blush. “The things I write are very private. I have three journals filled up. Started a new one recently. I would never allow anyone to read, though.”
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“I bet you write beautifully.”

“I really don’t,” he chuckles. “I just like to scribble everything down because I don’t like to forget. From time to time I express my feelings.”

“How do you express them?”

“I just...write. I don’t care if it’s not a correct poem. I just do it.”
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Sounds about right. Taehyung looks away and dips inside the water. Jungkook tries to chuckle, but it gets stuck thanks to the lump in his throat. In order to smile, he looks over at his bag, where love is kept inside.

“Tae, I’ll get out for a bit.”

“Sure! I’ll be in here.”
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The picnic blanket lays on the ground, and they both lie over it. Taehyung has both hands behind his head, a wide grin on his face. Jungkook is flat on the ground, hands over his belly, smiling softly at the sky.

"Pretty right?" Taehyung asks, speaking over some loud teens.
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"Yeah, I've always like watching the stars." Jungkook shuffles a bit and sighs once getting comfortable. "I don't feel as alone."

"I'm here too," Taehyung teases. "You're not completely alone with them."

"But you're not with me all the time, Tae."
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It falls silent all over again and Taehyung's grin slowly reduces. His gaze falls over Jungkook's, who is fixated on the night sky. He knows what to do to make his friend smile.

"Your eyes reflect the galaxy."

Jungkook snaps rigid at the compliment and he shakes his head.
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"What did you just say?" he stutters with hurt, not daring to look at Taehyung.

"Just... you see stars beyond your own," Taehyung replies, smiling sweetly all over again.

Oh, but Jungkook isn't smiling. "Don't say that," he scolds and sits up. "Not when you have a boyfriend."
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Just like that, neither of them are smiling anymore. One glares at the ground with a clenching heart, tears intoxicating the cries inside his head. The other follows his sitting position, eyebrows furrowed and lips upside down.

"Why not? Friends compliment—"

"Not like that."
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There's a barrier he likes to keep, not only for other people, but also for himself. Taehyung cried for help, and Jungkook is here to stop his tears, but not this way. Though he understand what Taehyung says is platonic, his heart won't ever take it as a simple compliment.
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Therefore he builds a wall between what is a pillow and a knife. The sweetest things can scar you the worst inside, worse than a cut on the skin. Promises like these will contact consequences, and anyone but /him/ will walk away, because they won't be who die.
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Here he is, asking for the love story a second chance guaranteed. If Jungkook loses himself throughout the way, he won't have anyone to blame but himself.

"I'm sorry," Taehyung whispers. "I just wanted to make you smile."

"I know, and you do," he answers. "But not like this."
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For the rest of the night they enjoy the breeze. Taehyung tells him random facts about the stars and how he once tried to buy a star for himself but his mum caught him.

Getting to know each other as friends feels relaxing. Maybe that is why their relationship failed in the past.
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Jungkook pockets his phone and takes a few more hand wipes. He taps his swollen face with them, careful not to ruin the soft layer of makeup he added before heading out.

There are tears on his eyelashes, nose red and runny. He takes a shuddery breath and blows into the tissue.
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The worst he can do in this situation is open Evermore and read some more, but this rose tinted book has been the only safe place he's had throughout this mess.

He flips to today's diary entry and begins to read. Encountering the word "kiss" on the page has him closing his eyes.
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The book falls shut and he hugs it close, places his forehead on the cover. Today wasn't only their first date, but it was supposed to be their first kiss as well. Jungkook feels himself closing up all over again. He drowns his written name on the cover with never ending tears.
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His eyes won't stop dripping and it's beginning to make his contact lenses uncomfortable. He drops the book in the bag and takes out his contact lenses case, then places them inside. Afterwards he takes out his glasses to wear.

A blow lands on the door, causing him to jump.
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"Hurry up!" someone yells from outside. Jungkook takes a deep breath and opens the door, mumbling an apology to the guy as he walks past him.

The world was already crashing, but stepping out of the bathroom is the hammer on the glass. A hurtful whimper leaves his lips.
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Ever since he found out Taehyung has a boyfriend, the farthest he had seen them go for was hold of hands, but Jungkook had never even thought of catching them kissing. Even less watching Taehyung hand Sungmin a beautiful red rose.

/His/ rose.

And /his/ kiss.

Those are /his./
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He worked so hard, only for all his excitement to be taken away from him.
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Jungkook covers most of the bed with his body, dashing through the pages with purpose. His face continues to be swollen, but thankfully, for now, the tears have taken a halt.

He stops through every page, finding a few comments, a few questions, all from Evermore Taehyung.
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With exasperation he slaps the book to the ground and grips his hair. A broken sob leaves his lips and his eyes flicker to the book that now defines a broken rose.

It's open at the last page, the messiest one Jungkook has come upon on. He takes a shaky breath and stands up.
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His body falls on the ground. Trembling hands pull the book closer, holding it on the edges. He reads the first line, "Why we broke up."

The tip of his finger touches the title and he begins to read the passage. His eyes run over every word, side to side, up and down.
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His brain is filling up with information he never expected to know. He didn't lie to Taehyung when he said he was reading a sad love story. Worst part is now his eyes fill up with tears, and as he blinks all he can see is the pond; the scenery where he and Taehyung fought.
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His body feels weak, breathing becomes shallow, and before he knows it he's /there./ His body falls beside the book. As soon as his eyes fall shut, he watches years of Taehyung and he together pass before him. He watches their first date, their first kiss, and their breakup.
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Jungkook stands above him on the sidewalk. He offers a hand towards Taehyung, who immediately takes it and allows himself to be lifted. Jungkook lets go of his hand and places them both behind his body, smiling softly.

"So? Are we heading for the park?"

"Yeah, let's go."
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As they walk, Taehyung feels his hands begin to sweat. He rubs them against his jeans, then uses his left one to run it through his hair. He feels like an idiot, but for some reason he can't stop. Plus, whenever Jungkook asks him something, all he can do is stutter.
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"Are you ok? You don't look well," Jungkook comments as soon as they enter the park and find a comfortable spot to sit.

"Yes, yes, don't worry, I'm—I'm amazing. Don't worry about me."

"Are... you sure?"

Another hand runs through his hair. He nods rapidly, repeating himself.
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Jungkook falls on the ground with crossed legs. He sends Taehyung a worried look before playing with the flowers near his knees.

"If you say so."

Taehyung throws his head back with frustration and flops down in front of the younger boy. "Actually, I need to tell you something."
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Jungkook nods and composes himself, scoots a little closer until their knees are touching. His little ears perk up, something Taehyung adores about him. Jungkook is always ready to give you all of his attention, no matter what it is you will talk about.

Point is, he's perfect.
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"I don't know where to start," Taehyung mumbles. His shaky hands fall on his lap, fingers touching one another. Jungkook sighs out a chuckle and takes a hold of his hands.

"Take your time."

"You see," he flashes a quick glance at Jungkook, then back at the ground. "I kind of—"
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The words get stuck in his throat. Jungkook watches him with confusion, but never says anything. He doesn't want to rush him. Taehyung is obviously having a hard time expressing himself right now. The best Jungkook can do is give him all the time in the world.
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"I broke up with Sungmin," he ends up saying, which is ridiculous because Jungkook already knows. Has known ever since it happened.

Jungkook snorts and mumbles, "I am aware."

"I didn't love him, Jungkook. I couldn't because I fell in love with someone else. Someone better."
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"You did?"

"Yeah," Taehyung sighs. His hand holds on tighter onto Jungkook's. "I wrote it all down—the love I feel for this person. I've loved him ever since he opened the door, ever since I saw those ridiculous bunny socks on his feet."

Jungkook's breath hitches. "It's—oh."
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What Jungkook has been desiring for so long is finally here. Finally, for christ's sake, finally everything is falling into place—even if it really isn't. Taehyung's eyes watch him with a new universe, a new doorway to enter and find comfort. He speaks like he feels the melody.
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"You—you love me?" Jungkook asks in a soft voice. His eyes are stuck on their hands, because for some stupid reason he can't quite look at Taehyung.

"I do." And when those two words leave Taehyung's lips, one single tear runs down Jungkook's cheek. "No, no, why are you crying?"
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Taehyung lifts their hands to his lips and covers Jungkook's pink skin with kisses, trying to calm him down. He doesn't know if what he's doing is going too far, but Jungkook doesn't complain.

"You really do?"

"I do. I—I love you, Jungkook. Why are you sad?"

"I don't know."
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Taehyung nods slowly. Jungkook mumbles something but it's barely audible. He looks confused, looking around with those wide, beautiful eyes of his. Taehyung carefully holds his face and runs his thumb over his cheek.

"It's ok if you don't like me back."

"That's not it at all."
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It's true; that's not it at /all./ because of course he likes this Taehyung. He doesn't mind going out with him, doesn't mind holding his hand, and neither does he mind hugging him.

Of course he /likes/ this Taehyung, of course he does.

However, there is a /but./
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"Then what is it?" Both their voices fall into whispers. Jungkook closes his eyes, leans his head against Taehyung's hand.

"I'm supposed to love you back," he whimpers.

"You're supposed to—what? What do you mean?"

"I've—why don't I love you, Tae? I'm supposed to love you!"
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All this creates is confusion inside of Taehyung. He doesn't quite know what Jungkook means, but it seems like Jungkook is confused as well, and all he's saying is pure ramble.

"You don't have to love me, Kook. It's fine, yeah? I promise it's ok. We can still be friends."
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Jungkook, with a breaking voice, forces out, "But I'm supposed to love /you,/ not him."

"T-There's someone else?" Taehyung whispers with an aching heart.

"I don't know if it's someone else."

"Kook, you're confusing me."

"I'm sorry. I'm confused too, Tae. You have no idea."
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Watching Taehyung, Jungkook realises that the man who just confessed his love is beautiful and talented, but is nowhere near the twenty-nine year old who wrote the book. The man who sits before him doesn't love him the way Evermore does.

Like is for him, but not love.
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He doesn't know what to do. His mind has completely separated the past from the present, and no matter how hard he tries, he can't get himself to feel for this new version of Taehyung. His heart has been given to the book.

Yet, he watches this Taehyung and feels himself fluster.
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"I think..." he ends up whispering. "I think I need time. Not away from you or anything. In fact, I want to be with you as much as possible, but I'm asking for time."

"I'll give you everything you ask for," Taehyung says.

"Will you really?"

"We can continue to be who we were."
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That is exactly what he needs. He needs them to be who they were. Nothing major needs to change. Jungkook needs to have a talk with his mind and get himself to calm down before doing anything.

"Then... can you hug me?" Taehyung chuckles with a nod. He scoots closer and does so.
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Jungkook places his head on his shoulder and closes his eyes. There are no kisses nor caresses. Nothing but company.

He can't help but think that maybe this is Taehyung's heartbreak. He already had his own, and now it is Taehyung's turn.

All because the universe loves to play.
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Evermore becomes more of a magazine and stops being a rulebook. Most of the book is marked in yellow, sticky notes with different colours throughout the pages, where Jungkook's notes lay. The book becomes his companion through the months.

Now the sunset leaves drop like rain.
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Yesterday's pastries fill up Jungkook's kitchen. Taehyung comes over whenever he's not busy with classes. Now that they both are studying, they use it as an excuse to work together.

As the book had once said, it falls into a grey November, but not because of a broken heart.
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It feels like a hundred years have passed by, and now he can't quite remember what he was fighting for. All he knows is he's reaching the point where smiling too much hurts.

He feels happy, but there's this tingly feeling that won't allow him to tell Taehyung that he likes him.
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It has nothing to do with Jungkook "not" having feelings for Taehyung. In fact, Jungkook is aware his heart is split in two. One piece is for Evermore Taehyung, while the other is for the boy he has a few houses down.

At this point he simply allows himself to enjoy the moment.
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Appreciating the moment is holding Taehyung's hand, allowing him to kiss his face, returning the cuddles and grins. The only thing he's missing is a peck on the lips, but once again, his head won't allow him to. Not just yet, but soon.

For that day, Jungkook cannot wait.
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"Tae!" he calls out as soon as he sees him.

Taehyung moves to stand up, but Jungkook beats him to it and hugs him from behind the chair, landing a wet kiss on his cheek. Taehyung greets him and pulls another chair for him to sit down.

"What are you doing?" he asks.
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Taehyung hums and places his arms over an object on the table. He shrugs, chin over his hands as he leans forward. Jungkook tries to peek what he's hiding but is unable to.

"Nothing much. You?"

"What is that?" Jungkook points at Taehyung's arms "What are you hiding?"
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There's a wicked smile on Taehyung's lips. He shakes his head and looks away, not moving his arms at all. "It's nothing."

"Oh, come on! Tell me!"

"It's embarrassing!" the smile on his lips has Jungkook feeling weak. His whole face goes red with a blush as he slaps his arm.
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"Show me! I bet it's not embarrassing."

Taehyung sighs and leans back, exposing a corner of the secret object. "It's my journal. Look away and let me write." Taehyung takes his pen and opens the journal. Jungkook tries to peek, but Taehyung pushes him away playfully.
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They're both laughing so much they can barely breathe. Happiness feels good and it looks beautiful. Taehyung's laugh sounds like a melody on the finest violin, and Jungkook wants more, more, and more.

But then Jungkook sees the journal correctly and he goes stiff.
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It's enough; the fixation of his heart, on the way his eyes resemble the last star on the sky, the thousand reasons his body feels tight—Jungkook is knocked out with realisation.

His head has been playing with who is who, separating the same body and mind into different men.
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Because here he is, Taehyung, who carries a cover with an identical tint of rose, the same as the one Jungkook’s bag swallows everyday before heading out. He writes with a trustworthy wrist, lazy on the pencil, strong on the words.

Jungkook sees it—Evermore.
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"Oh my god," he exhales. Taehyung looks up with confused features, raising a questioning eyebrow. "Nothing! Just, your journal. It's, um, it's so pretty."

"Is it?" Taehyung asks and closes it. He shows it off. Jungkook doesn't even need to see it because he knows it by memory.
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He's aware of the well taken care of cover, the almost perfectly white pages. Difference is, this one doesn't have Jungkook's name on the cover. It doesn't have Evermore written either. This one is blank and all Taehyung's. It's his own. Jungkook wouldn't mind reading it either.
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The inside of this book must be different from the one he keeps in his own bag, but even so, Jungkook is sure the story inside this book won't be very different when it comes to writing about love.

"What do you write about?"

"That's top secret. I can't tell you."
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Jungkook scoots closer on his chair, until his hand can hold onto Taehyung's. He wraps it around Taehyung’s bicep, shaking him a little.

"Do you write about me?" he asks in a bliss.

Taehyung's eyes widen. "I—I do. I write about us, about our time together. How did you know?"
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"You do?" Jungkook whispers, ignoring his question.

"Yeah. I don't want to forget about it ever. I leave a few pages blank just incase I forget anything important. You're all I write about now; about how much I feel for you."

“You write about your love for me?"

"I do."
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The fog that covered Jungkook's route finally clears up. His eyes find Taehyung's and he can't help but stare. He wants to cry again—something he hasn't done for a while now. He wants to cry and scream because everything Taehyung just said is everything Evermore carried.
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The beautiful, talented student who sits in front of him—this twenty-three year old guy—is just as lovesick as the twenty-nine year old who wrote the whole book. He carries the same feelings, the same love, the same writing capacity that feels like a million kisses.
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"I bet you write beautifully."

Taehyung chuckles and lands a kiss on Jungkook's temple. He whispers, "You've told me, but you can't say that because you haven't read it."

Right. "I stand by it."

"You're cute," he says and this time kisses him on the cheek. "Let's go inside."
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The clock hits midnight but Jungkook doesn't care. He doesn't care enough to put on a hoodie nor take an umbrella. He runs out of his house in socks and pyjamas. The book watches him leave from the chair in the corner.

Jungkook only cares for the boy a few houses down.
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The rain pokes him everywhere and his glasses don't let him see correctly, but they will forever be better than his blinding contacts. He reaches Taehyung's house, catching his breath.

Staring out an open window is Taehyung. He notices him, slams the window shut and runs down.
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The front door opens a few seconds later, with Taehyung holding a towel. Before he can head for Jungkook and wrap him in warmth, Jungkook stands before the front steps, raising his hand.

"Jungkook, what are you—"

"I love you."

The words fly out, defeating the rain.
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Taehyung slowly lowers the towel. He takes one step forward, getting closer to the open weather. "You... you do? You love me too?"

"I love you so much," Jungkook says a little bit louder. "I'm so sorry it took so long. I've loved you for the longest time, I was just confused."
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Taehyung nods at first, but then shakes his head with a smile and opens the towel again. "Come here," he whispers sweetly to the younger.

"No," Jungkook huffs, "/you/ come here." He takes his arm, forces him to drop the towel, and pulls him under the rain.

"We'll get sick—"
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Lips meet lips, hands on cheeks, holding each other in place. Everything feels ridiculous, a tad bit too dramatic, but neither mind. Who would care about a little sneezing when you are being allowed to wrap your arms around the one person you will love all your life?
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Taehyung pulls him a little bit closer, kisses him a little bit deeper. They slowly step under the front porch, not once pulling away from each other.

All those times Jungkook said he couldn't wait to kiss Taehyung, this is exactly what he meant; veins buzzing with /love./
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"Hey," Jungkook says between kisses. "Just to be clear, you're my boyfriend now."

Taehyung chuckles against his lips and nods. "Good to know." His hand pets the front of Jungkook's hair, removing the dripping wet strands.

"I love you, Taehyung."

"I love you too, honey."
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The breeze at the pond is soothing, like any other day. The environment is just as bright and warm. Jungkook ignores the words his mother told him today in the morning, all about "when will you get married?" but he doesn't care about that now, nor will he care tomorrow.
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He sees Taehyung sitting near a tree, spread over the picnic blanket. He has his journal out, writing quickly. This is a new one. The last ones are long gone, completely filled up. Now, even at twenty-nine, Taehyung continues to write just as beautifully.
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"Hey," Jungkook greets and sits down beside his boyfriend of six years. He places a few kisses on his cheek, then cuddles on his side, head on his shoulder. "What are you writing about today?"

"You again," Taehyung says with a smile. "Writing promises."

"Really? Like which?"
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Taehyung puts down his pen and leaves it in between the pages. He takes a hold of Jungkook's chin and puckers his lips to kiss him.

"That I'm gonna to marry you someday."

The breakup flashback that never left Jungkook's mind sits there, watching his every move. He doesn't care.
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Here it’s different. Here Taehyung doesn't promise this as a growing adult. No, here he speaks as a man who already earns enough to move away, who has his life in place.

Jungkook chuckles and carefully closes the book on Taehyung's lap. "We don't need to promise anything now."
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They share another kiss before Taehyung tries to open his journal again and continue writing. Jungkook is quick, playfully snatches the book away with a giggle. Taehyung whines but lies down, arms behind his head.

"Let's put it away," Jungkook says. "We don't need it anymore."
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"I will always need my book, baby," Taehyung tells him. Jungkook shakes his head and places cuddles on Taehyung's chest, looking up.

"I used to think so too," he mumbles. "You don't need the book anymore, Tae. You have me and you will never lose me."

"Hm. Do you promise?"
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Jungkook nods and kisses his chin. He watches how Taehyung closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. He looks beautiful with his tan skin, dark hair and relaxed smile.

Jungkook was right; the light of the sun will always find an angel to kiss. This time the sun kisses them both.
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He throws one last glance at Taehyung's book. This one’s purple, a sign that Evermore was left behind and all that matters is their future.

Jungkook hasn't opened that hidden book in years. Taehyung even offered him to read the his current writes, plus the ones he finished.
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— the end⌛️
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thank you so much for staying here and supporting me through this tiny journey 💜
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this au was inspired out of this song
open.spotify.com/track/6Wlq9rqk…
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