post canon #wangxian au with accidental darkji in which they're in...
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post canon #wangxian au with accidental darkji in which they're in a night hunt, trying to catch this vengeful spirit, but it is smart and hard to catch, so when it launches for wwx, and lwj steps in front of him, it actually possesses lwj, but makes it seem like it's been killed
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And the worst part is that wwx doesn't notice. The spirit managed to trap lwj's mind inside himself and access all of his memories, so it knows to be quiet, to act like lwj. So wwx, who's used to his husband's silence while he works his every thought out loud, is none the wiser.
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They're far from the Cloud Recesses, so wwx suggest they stay the night at a nearby in.
Meanwhile, the spirit is busy thinking of a way to get rid of wwx so it can use this body to go seek its revenge. The thing is, the spirit could just kill wwx, yes, but lwj's memories...
Meanwhile, the spirit is busy thinking of a way to get rid of wwx so it can use this body to go seek its revenge. The thing is, the spirit could just kill wwx, yes, but lwj's memories...
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Lwj's memories are so interesting. This noble young master has been through so much for the sake of his little demonic cultivator.
Behind wwx's back, the spirit twists lwj's mouth into a smirk.
Behind wwx's back, the spirit twists lwj's mouth into a smirk.
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Wwx keeps running his mouth as they move through their nighttime routine. He removes lwj's ribbon, unties his hair, and helps him take off his outer robes.
He thinks they can do without a bath for now, especially since they haven't done their everyday yet. They can bathe later.
He thinks they can do without a bath for now, especially since they haven't done their everyday yet. They can bathe later.
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There's no hurry, though. So wwx gets lwj comfortably flat on the bed so he can drape himself over him.
He lets out a content sigh.
"Er-gege, are you tired?"
Wwx thinks he hears lwj snort.
"I have never been more awake."
Yup, definitely a snort. So lwj's in a playful mood.
He lets out a content sigh.
"Er-gege, are you tired?"
Wwx thinks he hears lwj snort.
"I have never been more awake."
Yup, definitely a snort. So lwj's in a playful mood.
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Wwx smiles against lwj's chest. He's about to say something (he doesn't know what but it'll be shameless) when lwj speaks again
"Wei Ying, Wei Ying, you are a menace."
"Oh, yeah," wwx plays along. "And what are you gonna do about it, Hanguangjun?"
"Perhaps I should leave you."
"Wei Ying, Wei Ying, you are a menace."
"Oh, yeah," wwx plays along. "And what are you gonna do about it, Hanguangjun?"
"Perhaps I should leave you."
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The smile drops from wwx's face. He pushes himself up so he can face lwj.
"That's not funny, er-gege."
"It was not a jest. You are a menace," he lifts an eyebrow. "I often wonder if I would not be better off."
Wwx's insides go cold. He sits, putting some distance between them.
"That's not funny, er-gege."
"It was not a jest. You are a menace," he lifts an eyebrow. "I often wonder if I would not be better off."
Wwx's insides go cold. He sits, putting some distance between them.
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"Lan Zhan, stop." He tries, doing his best to summon a grin, tho it probably comes out as more of a grimace. "I don't think I can do that kind of play, gege. You can pretend you're subduing the Yilling Laozu, that he finally—"
"Did you know my scars still hurt?"
Wwx freezes.
"Did you know my scars still hurt?"
Wwx freezes.
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Now, if wwx was in a better state of mind, he'd find it weird that lwj's interrupting him, that lwj is complaining at all, but these are wwx's deepest fears being broadcast in this shabby inn, and so he's completely paralyzed.
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Lwj sits up calmly, his head against the headboard, hands folded neatly on his lap.
"They do," he goes on. "In the winter, in the coldest nights. They sting, and I remember."
Feeling sick to his stomach, wwx takes in a shaky breath.
"Lan Zhan? I didn't know, you never said—"
"They do," he goes on. "In the winter, in the coldest nights. They sting, and I remember."
Feeling sick to his stomach, wwx takes in a shaky breath.
"Lan Zhan? I didn't know, you never said—"
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"Oh, so I should have said?" lwj interrupts him again. He cocks his head to the side. "Said what, Wei Ying?
Wwx blinks several times, then shakes his head. This feels like a nightmare. He wonders if he wasn't actually knocked out during the hunt and this is a hallucination.
Wwx blinks several times, then shakes his head. This feels like a nightmare. He wonders if he wasn't actually knocked out during the hunt and this is a hallucination.
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"That... that you were hurting," he explains lamely.
"And what would you have done?"
"I don't know, I'd find a way to, to make it stop."
"Wei Ying," lwj says in the same familiar tone, reaching out to take one of wwx's hands. "Whenever you try to help, you make it worse."
"And what would you have done?"
"I don't know, I'd find a way to, to make it stop."
"Wei Ying," lwj says in the same familiar tone, reaching out to take one of wwx's hands. "Whenever you try to help, you make it worse."
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"Lan Zhan?"
"Wei Ying, haven't you learned?"
"You—"
Wwx wants to take his hand back, he wants to pull away and stand up, and maybe leave this room. This is not happening. He shakes his head again. This is a dream. It has to be.
But then again.
It's not like lwj is wrong.
"Wei Ying, haven't you learned?"
"You—"
Wwx wants to take his hand back, he wants to pull away and stand up, and maybe leave this room. This is not happening. He shakes his head again. This is a dream. It has to be.
But then again.
It's not like lwj is wrong.
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He did makes this so, so much worse every time he tried to help. Jiang Cheng, the wens, shijie, lwj himself.
Lxc said it best, wwx was lwj's only mistake.
And if one jade feels like that, why wouldn't the other?
"Lan Zhan, I'm sorry."
Lxc said it best, wwx was lwj's only mistake.
And if one jade feels like that, why wouldn't the other?
"Lan Zhan, I'm sorry."
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"No need."
"But—"
"No need. Apologizing does not change what happened." lwj rubs his thumb over the back of wwx's hand. "Like your gratitude, Wei Ying. It's just not enough."
This time wwx does pull away.
"Why are you saying this?" He really is about to lose it. "Lan Zhan!"
"But—"
"No need. Apologizing does not change what happened." lwj rubs his thumb over the back of wwx's hand. "Like your gratitude, Wei Ying. It's just not enough."
This time wwx does pull away.
"Why are you saying this?" He really is about to lose it. "Lan Zhan!"
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Lwj averts his eyes. "I am tired. It has been so long. Too long to carry it all inside." He looks at wwx again. "Don't you think it is time, to be honest?"
"Honest? Lan Zhan, you never lie!"
"No, but I omit. I love Wei Ying. He ought to know that love comes through much pain."
"Honest? Lan Zhan, you never lie!"
"No, but I omit. I love Wei Ying. He ought to know that love comes through much pain."
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Wwx flinches so hard that he falls off the bed.
He barely registers it, most of his body's numb, except for his stomach, which is rolling like mad. One more word from lwj and he'll be sick
"I know, I know," wwx agrees quietly, eyes down, unable to look up. "I hurt you, I know"
He barely registers it, most of his body's numb, except for his stomach, which is rolling like mad. One more word from lwj and he'll be sick
"I know, I know," wwx agrees quietly, eyes down, unable to look up. "I hurt you, I know"
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How could he not know? He traces those scares with his fingers, his mouth, every day, and he remembers.
There's a glint on lwj's eyes. The spirit feeds on wwx's misery. If wwx raised his eyes now he'd see, he'd realize this isn't his husband, but he's nearly broken and it knows
There's a glint on lwj's eyes. The spirit feeds on wwx's misery. If wwx raised his eyes now he'd see, he'd realize this isn't his husband, but he's nearly broken and it knows
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Lwj unfolds his hands and gracefully swings his legs to the side to stand up and tall over wwx.
"My beloved Wei Ying." He bends slightly to cup wwx's face, forcing him to look up. "What a terrible thing it is, to love and be loved by you."
Wwx turns away and vomits on the floor
"My beloved Wei Ying." He bends slightly to cup wwx's face, forcing him to look up. "What a terrible thing it is, to love and be loved by you."
Wwx turns away and vomits on the floor
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He can't hear lwj anymore over the sound of his own retching, his own sobs. His stomach twists in painful knots and wwx can't fucking breathe.
He doesn't know how long he stays like that, but he's still bent in half on the floor when the door explodes behind him.
"Wei-gongzi!"
He doesn't know how long he stays like that, but he's still bent in half on the floor when the door explodes behind him.
"Wei-gongzi!"
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"Wen Ning," wwx gasps. What's wn doing here?
He's about to ask, but before he can, an animalist sound comes from lwj's direction and wwx watches in horror as he unsheathes bichen and lurches himself towards wn.
"Lan Zhan? What are you doing?"
"Wei-gongzi, this is not HGJ!"
He's about to ask, but before he can, an animalist sound comes from lwj's direction and wwx watches in horror as he unsheathes bichen and lurches himself towards wn.
"Lan Zhan? What are you doing?"
"Wei-gongzi, this is not HGJ!"
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It takes a moment for wwx's brain to make sense of the word.
Not hgj, not lwj.
When it finally clicks, there's only one emotion left in him: rage.
He whips his flute from the low table he had deposited it and blows a single shrill note.
Not hgj, not lwj.
When it finally clicks, there's only one emotion left in him: rage.
He whips his flute from the low table he had deposited it and blows a single shrill note.
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"You really dare to possess Hanguang-jun. You really dare to try to take the Yiling Laozu's husband?"
He doesn't wait for an answer, he keeps playing, pouring all the pain from the old wounds the spirit just opened, all his resentment.
The spirit leaves lwj's body with a shriek
He doesn't wait for an answer, he keeps playing, pouring all the pain from the old wounds the spirit just opened, all his resentment.
The spirit leaves lwj's body with a shriek
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Lwj topples forward, but luckily wn is close enough to hold him.
Wwx's nose is bleeding, he hasn't used this much resentful energy at once in a long time. It doesn't matter, though. He absently wipes it off with the back of his hand, tossing the dizi aside.
"Lan Zhan!"
Wwx's nose is bleeding, he hasn't used this much resentful energy at once in a long time. It doesn't matter, though. He absently wipes it off with the back of his hand, tossing the dizi aside.
"Lan Zhan!"
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Wn, bless him, moves lwj's body so that his head is resting on wn's lap.
Wwx's grateful, very grateful, but he also needs to hold lwj in his hands right now, so he doesn't voice his gratitude as he takes a hold of lwj's body, pulling it over himself in an awkward hug
Wwx's grateful, very grateful, but he also needs to hold lwj in his hands right now, so he doesn't voice his gratitude as he takes a hold of lwj's body, pulling it over himself in an awkward hug
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"I'm here, I'm here," wwx tells him ask he cradles lwj's head against his chest, slowly rocking the two of them. "I'm sorry, Lan Zhan. I'm so sorry, I didn't notice. I should've known, I should've seen it!"
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He doesn't know if he's apologizing for not noticing the spirit, or for everything it said to him. Probably both.
Wn quietly excuses himself once he realizes the threat is gone. Wwx will have to thank him properly later, and also ask him how he knew, but not now.
Wn quietly excuses himself once he realizes the threat is gone. Wwx will have to thank him properly later, and also ask him how he knew, but not now.
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Now he needs a moment to cry his freaking eyes out while he holds lwj.
He's still doing the by the time lwj comes to.
"Wei Ying?"
"Lan Zhan? How are you feeling?"
Wwx finally pulls away so he can inspect lwj's face for any trace of pain, or possession.
He's still doing the by the time lwj comes to.
"Wei Ying?"
"Lan Zhan? How are you feeling?"
Wwx finally pulls away so he can inspect lwj's face for any trace of pain, or possession.
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"I—I am well, I think." Lwj blinks at him, confused, for a couple of seconds, then he goes completely still.
"It wasn't your fault," wwx is quick to reassure him.
"It used my memories, to hurt you. Wei Ying, I—"
He pulls away and brings his knees up, hugging them.
"It wasn't your fault," wwx is quick to reassure him.
"It used my memories, to hurt you. Wei Ying, I—"
He pulls away and brings his knees up, hugging them.
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"Lan Zhan, It wasn't you. I know that now." wwx gingerly places a hand on lwj's knee. "Sorry I didn't see it sooner."
If possible, lwj goes even paler.
"Please, do not apologize."
Wwx doesn't mean to, but the words make him wince again.
Lwj closes his eyes like he's in pain.
If possible, lwj goes even paler.
"Please, do not apologize."
Wwx doesn't mean to, but the words make him wince again.
Lwj closes his eyes like he's in pain.
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"No, no, no. This is, we can't let it win. Lan Zhan." wwx takes a deep breath. "It's not on us. Not me, not you. We didn't do this."
His heart is still bleeding, his hands are still shaking, but the spirit was right about one thing, it's been too long, and they gotta be honest.
His heart is still bleeding, his hands are still shaking, but the spirit was right about one thing, it's been too long, and they gotta be honest.
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Wwx gives lwj's knee a firm squeeze.
"Er-gege, look at me."
There are tears in lwj's eyes when he opens them, wwx sighs, and moving slowly, in case lwj doesn't want it, he leans forward and kisses the tears away.
"Wei Ying," lwj says quietly.
"Yeah?"
"Er-gege, look at me."
There are tears in lwj's eyes when he opens them, wwx sighs, and moving slowly, in case lwj doesn't want it, he leans forward and kisses the tears away.
"Wei Ying," lwj says quietly.
"Yeah?"
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"Loving you is the best part of my life." wwx can't do anything about his own tears flowing freely down his face. "Being loved by you is a privilege. I would not have it any other way."
"Oh, Lan Zhan," he gasps. "You're so, so good"
Lwj pulls him into his arms, wwx goes easily
"Oh, Lan Zhan," he gasps. "You're so, so good"
Lwj pulls him into his arms, wwx goes easily
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There are two lifetimes and a world of pain between them, the spirit was right, there's no erasing that.
But it didn't count on the fact that their love is much strong than their pain, strong enough to heal. And as Lwj holds him, wwx knows, they'll be okay.
The end!
But it didn't count on the fact that their love is much strong than their pain, strong enough to heal. And as Lwj holds him, wwx knows, they'll be okay.
The end!
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ron@ronniexian
post canon #wangxian au with accidental darkji in which they're in a night hunt, trying to catch this vengeful spirit, but it is smart and hard to catch, so when it launches for wwx, and lwj steps in front of him, it actually possesses lwj, but makes it seem like it's been killed