#dkfembk #pregsuki " WOULD YOU JUST- JUST FUCKING GET OFF MY ASS...

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#dkfembk #pregsuki

" WOULD YOU JUST- JUST FUCKING GET OFF MY ASS FOR ONCE" Izuku yelled, making katsuki stare in disbelief

All she did was ask for ice cream?

Katsuki pressed her lips into a thin line, unsure what to say or whether to say
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" FUCK IT" Izuku stomped out of the house, shutting the front door loud enough to make katsuki flinch

Katsuki stare at the closed door, unable to fathom what triggered the man to this point

She rubbed her belly to comfort her child or who knows, maybe herself as well
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She was craving some ice cream? There was still daylight outside? And the shop is a half hour walking distance away? It's not like she was asking something extreme

Or maybe it was because how often she does it that got him so angry?
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Katsuki walked towards the front door, albeit slow. It's not easy handling a tummy that might pop within a week or two.

She opened the door and sure enough, Izuku was nowhere to be found.

"He… really just yelled at me" katsuki whispered, too stunned to be angry
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Katsuki closed the door, locking it for safety. It's not like she can go after him. It rained not too long ago, the last thing she wants to do is slip and fall, especially if there's no one to help her up
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She went back to the couch and wrapped the blanket around her while she waited for Izuku. She's not really in the mood for ice cream anymore

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It was 8 pm now, Katsuki had checked thrice.

She would have been in the bed by now but who's going to open the door if katsuki falls asleep

She'll demand explanation and fucking apologies once the nerd gets back. Katsuki had prepared an earful as well and there's no way to get
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out of this easily

And then maybe they'll talk. Yeah- talk it through Just in case she was being unbearable. It's not like she herself knew how odd she had been acting with the hormones going around

But if something was so wrong, the nerd should have just told her instead of
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making it so difficult!

Katsuki pouted, just thinking about it was making her upset for some reason. She sent some angry emoji to Ida out of the blue due to her own frustrating
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Izuku didn't take anything with him and left. Of course Katsuki would look for him one way or another. It's a pain nobody knows where he is

Ida: I'm sorry bakugou that I couldn't be of help. But I'll try to find midoriya as well
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" Whatever" katsuki tossed her phone to the couch pillow

Now she was starting to get irritated
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It wasn't until 12 am did she started to panic

What's going on? What's he doing? Where is he?

Katsuki rubbed her tummy. There's no way he got afraid of raising a baby- right? No way he freaked out about his own family- right? Then-

Why isn't he coming back?

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" I'm scared" Izuku rubbed his face, sighing deeply

"Lemme ask you one more time-you want 'fatherly advice' from me?" Todoroki pointed at himself and Izuku groaned

"No no-you're asking it from me" todoroki tried again"I don't think me or any todoroki should ever give parenting
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advice. Or have kids maybe"

"No it's not advice- I want" Izuku paused " I don't know, okay I don't fucking know what I want. I'm just- I'm just scared okay- terrified"

" You're freaking out" todoroki stated
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" You have noticed!" Izuku squeaked sarcastically, turning his voice unbelievable pitched possible unintentionally

It really feels different when some acknowledge it.

"I'm like -" Izuku pressed his thumb and index together, fingers arching up to make a perfect circle "
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this close- this close From having a panic attack right now"

" Don't have those?" Todoroki reasoned " Don't. They are nasty. Calm down?"

Izuku's shoulder fell, forcing him to break eye contact with Todoroki and look at the dirt in front of them. How he wished it was that easy
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There was a bug crawling around, must have come out of the soil due to rain. It suddenly ate up Izuku's entire attention

" Midoriya" todoroki spoke again, not being comfortable with the unusual silence between them " I don't understand. Why are you even scared?"
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"I'm going to have a baby" Izuku mumbled

"You already knew it. For months now"

He did. But today, it actually hit him how big the entire event actually is

"I'm going to raise a person"

" Yes?"
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" I'm going to have a baby! A baby is going to have /me/" Izuku looked at todoroki pleading, pointing at himself, hoping todoroki would understand what he was trying to say. But his friend remained indifferent

Izuku sighed, once again. He straightened up to move from Todoroki's
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personal space. " Soon there will be someone who'll look at my every step, soon I'll have to think twice before I say something cause you never know what sticks around a child. Soon I'll have to be a superhero, a idol and I don't know if I'm fit for the role I'm supposed to play"
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Izuku felt something cold on his shoulder which he assumes is Todoroki's hand but Izuku didn't bother to look at him. Maybe he was afraid of the look he'll receive or the reminder that he's just making it more complicated than its supposed to be
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"I think you'll be fine. You've always been great with kid"

Izuku looked at with a reassuring smile "thanks"

No-he's inner torment was nowhere to end. He knows for a fact that being good with kids for a short span of time has nothing to do with spending your entire life
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raising one.

There's commitments, responsibilities, affection and so many damn big words he never understood the actual meaning of.
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But he also knows whatever answer he's seeking isn't here and he's not going to make his friends feel bad about not being helpful enough. Neither he has any intention to stir up a deep buried memory shoto might have
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He held Todoroki's hand and squeezed lightly. It's all right. At least he get to let out his frustration, thoughts. Now, for the time being, he knows what he might be looking for. He had calmed down as well and it's enough

" you should talk to somebody, somebody that isn't me"
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Izuku's eyes widened in surprise. He didn't say any of these out loud but did shoto just read him like an open book? Has his expressions been that transparent?

" I guess"

" What about bakugou? Shouldn't you share it with her first"
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Izuku huffed, focusing on the dirt again. Where did the bug go?

" I don't want to see her right now. I mean her tummy reminds me of many things and I feel like I'll say something I shouldn't "
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Especially now that her mind has been so fragile due to the hormones. Izuku felt like he should choose his words correctly

"Oh but you should let her know. She was looking for you"

Izuku hummed, the mention of her name made his throat heavy again "when?"
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" Around 8 and again 2 or 3 hours ago. I forgot"

Izuku frowned. She should be asleep by now. What's wrong?

Izuku reached inside his pocket to find it empty. He forgot his phone at home, which is given how abruptly he left
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"Can I -" Izuku stopped noticing how Todoroki was already offering his phone "thanks!"

He'll just check up on her and let her know he'll stay out for the night, or maybe a couple of nights and get his thoughts back in place. He knows she'll be understanding of his situation
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Izuku dialed Katsuki's number and after quite a while she picked up. Izuku hopes he didn't ruin her sleep

" Kacchan"

The phone dropped right there and no matter how much he tried, he couldn't reach her again

"Um" Izuku stared at the phone
" I think she blocked me"
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TBC
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Izuku knocked on his door, loud enough to make the neighbors suspicious. But still, the door remained closed

He doesn't understand, the lights are still on. How can katsuki ignore him for so long
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Izuku went around the house to find any window unlocked hopefully but to his luck or perhaps misfortune in this case, the large window facing their yard was slightly ajar

Izuku entered the house, shoes in hand. He closed the window behind him,
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suddenly many possibilities clouding his head. Needless to say- none sounded pleasant

" Kacchan?" Izuku opened their bedroom, with little bit of hope he still had in his heart

The bed was still made, untouched even.
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Izuku bit his lip. With a thumping heart, he opened their closet door

It appears Izuku knew katsuki too well, since one of his worst case scenarios was indeed correct.

Some of katsuki's clothes were missing and when he searched the house,
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he noticed how her valuable items
were gone too

Katsuki had packed her bags and left
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Izuku pressed his hand on his face, sitting down on the couch

Just cause he expected it, doesn't make it bearable

"What the hell is she thinking" Izuku mumbled. It's past midnight, maybe around 2 or 3. Since it rained from time to time,the road's slippery, gloomy
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than any usual day. Where could she go?

Izuku rested his head on the headrest, closing his eyes to maybe for comfort or to gather his thoughts or maybe just for the sake of closing it
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He was already feeling hopeless with his thoughts regarding the baby but now an overwhelming sense of guilt was building up, making him impossibly tired

Either way, first things first. He's going to assume Katsuki's fine and look for her. There's nothing to Panic about
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Izuku picked up his phone. It was right where he left it, between the couch cousins. Ironically enough, he was sitting in the same place, with bigger worries this time

Izuku opened his phone, prepared for the slaughter of messages but none came
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He was at least expecting an earful from kirishima. What happened?

Izuku refreshed again but none of his friends seemed to know about Katsuki leaving. None
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There was only one message, a message that's hard to miss. It was from his mother in-law

" You are dead"

Crap. Out of all the people-
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Izuku chewed on his thumb, staring at his phone. At least, on the brighter side, Izuku knows where Katsuki was or her final destination if she was staying in a hotel right now.

But knowing this only made him more nervous
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TBC

( Have this little update, I've been a little sick recently)
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__________

Izuku stood few feets away from katsuki's house, preparing his words

He doesn't know for sure if katsuki's in there; it certainly would have helped if someone picked his calls.

And now, in the early morning he was standing there wet, sleepless and hungry
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But he needs to do this. Even if katsuki's not in there, her family definitely knew where she was- he'll talk to them and hopefully make something good out of his situation

He knocked at the door, softly. Compared to his previous act on his own door,
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it sounded as if a baby was knocking for a candy

"You're not really welcomed"

"Wah- " Izuku snapped his head towards the sound, startled. He expected someone through the door, not someone suddenly popping beside him " nice to meet you father"
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Izuku bowed. But you have to give him some credit not to give in to his instinct and punch his own father in law in the face

"Everyone is upset" masaru fidgeted, as if he's holding back words in his mouth
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Izuku bit the inside of his cheek. so there's no "nice to meet you too" huh? Well figured, he hasn't been the most pleasant guys in the last couple of hours

" I want to speak to kacchan" as if he'll be allowed to do this easily.
"I'm sorry it wasn't my intention to upset anyone
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I kind of just- " ' freaked out and left my heavily pregnant wife without a notice' Izuku didn't finish, but both of knew the words that were left behind
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Masaru didn't say a word. Izuku may have been expecting some humiliation or at least a few judgemental glares from the man. It's not that Izuku thinks such low of this man, but he had prepared himself cause he knew, he deserved it

" Are you okay?"
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Izuku looked at his father, stunned.

Nobody asks that to him anymore. It's always about the baby. How fun it would be to be around a baby, how lucky he was to bring a child into this world, how he should appreciate each moment.
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But then Izuku started to see the responsibility he doesn't know how to handle

Does katsuki feel the same?

He have no idea
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"I'm fine, thanks for asking" ah? Will he ever be honest to this question?

"You don't look fine?" Masaru questioned back

"I truly am, why would I lie?" Izuku laughed it off before quickly changing topic " can I please talk to her? She's definitely angry at me"
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" Katsuki? Yes, she's furious, upset even more and trust me she's not the most furious person in the house. And no, you can't talk to her" masaru stared at him for few seconds before taking a deep breath " well not now anyway, she's sleeping"
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Izuku smiled. So she was in there! That's a relief

But the happiness was short lived and disappeared the moment he realised he had made his wife make a long trip in the middle of the night

" Thank you" Izuku bowed again "I'll come back here at noon "
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It's not like he can stay here. Seeing his face, the first thing after waking up isn't something Katsuki would like. On top of it, Izuku knows that his father in law might have been calm about Izuku showing up - upset but calm- but his mother in-law would be quite the opposite.
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His stay inside would be quite unpleasant

" Where would you go? To your mom's?"

So he also thought Izuku coming inside would be a bad idea. Izuku wanted to laugh, out of sadness
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Isn't the situation getting bigger than it originally is? Is the people around him overreacting or is he underreacting?

"No, to the park maybe"

It's too early to wake up his mom. He doesn't want to answer the row of questions. He's just too tired.
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He would go to the park, maybe sleep in the bench for few hours and then come back to take katsuki back

" Wait here, I'll give mitsuki these tomatoes" masaru hold up the cherry red tomatoes he had been holding " and be right back"
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"Why?" But masaru had already jogged inside the house

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"Umm why are you here?"

" You don't want the umbrella?"

" It's not about that. It's just why?"

Izuku was sitting on the bench of the park, hugging his yellow bag pack. Beside him was his father in law, masaru, holding umbrella over both of their head
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" Why not? Do you hate me?"

" No no I'm just surprised that's all" Izuku was sure this man was upset at him

" I thought this would be a good opportunity to learn about the other side. I would hate it if, because of a misunderstanding, you two were to separate"
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/ You have got to be kidding-/

"Okay NO we're NOT splitting up!" There's no way such a small matter has escalated this far " I just freaked out OKAY? I JUST FREAKED OUT ONCE! Everyone does that right? Yes I left for a few hours BUT I'm here now!
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I'm here to apologize and make up for it. And isn't that what matters? I came back?" Izuku mumbled out the last words, voice close to a whisper "I promise it wouldn't happen again…"
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Something hot ran down his cheek and he wished it's not tears. He's going to have a child, it would be pathetic of his to cry in front of his baby

"Son, you're getting wet. Come, sit with me"
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Izuku wiped his eyes with the sleeve of his shirt. When the hell did he get up? And why was he so / angry/

"I'm sorry" he mumbled once again before taking back his seat

" Are you scared?"

/ Yes/ but decided only to stare at the dirty below
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" What's to come? Will the child like you? How should you act around them, what should you advise, what if they make a mistake, what if YOU make a mistake"

Izuku, once again, stared at masaru. This was the first time he heard the words he needed to hear
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" I- I'm nervous"

"Why?"

Will be he told ' just be yourself' again

" I just don't even know where to start"

He didn't have a father around, growing up. It has always been him and his mom.He doesn't know how father interacts with this child, how to play with them or
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even just be with them

That part of life has always been a void to him, non- existing

he never missed it before, it's something he never had, in fact he had been just fine without his father, up until now
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Some people may say it could have been worse, he could have gotten nasty experience like shoto but hey, at least shoto knew what not to do with his child
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" I don't plan to leave my family - never- but I just don't think I'm ready at this moment. I will be, I promise that but till then- " Izuku pressed his thumb on his bottom lip, say how to convey his feelings into words? " I need a guideline I think"
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" An example to follow?"

"Kind of, yeah"

" Then you'll be fine"

" How? I grew up without a dad, remember?"

" But you had your mom"

"Huh?" His mom is well /mom/ "I don't understand"
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"Son,I may not know what you are feeling but you don't need to follow the path you think you need to.Sometimes you need to just enjoy,be yourself"

/Oh,there is was/

"But if you ever feel like following someone else's footsteps,You have a good mom.I can tell she raised you well
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Masaru smiled, which left Izuku fuzzy.

Why is it that nothing he said makes sense but does at the same time

Why does it feel like /this could be what I'm looking for/ and /the solution can't be that simple/
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Izuku opened his mouth to say something but closed it right after not knowing what exactly he should say. It was as if he was speechless, by the situation itself
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"Come to our place for lunch okay? I'll manage my wife, you manage yours" he handled Izuku a melon bread,wrapped in plastic before talking off with no other words

Izuku watched him go,sitting on the bench,uncared about the drops of rain hitting him now that the umbrella was gone
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A strong gust of wind blew on his face, making his eyes sting, as if reminding him how desperate to close they were

They tore the plastic bag to take his first bite in the morning, mind still buzzing but empty at the said time. But maybe,
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the path Infront of him isn't as foggy as it used to be

Ah? He should take shelter from the rain

TBC
( Halfway through the story)
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Izuku woke up from buzzing of his phone

He had set up alarm just in case he falls asleep, knowing the state of his body was but he's rather surprised how fast he fall asleep

Has he been that tired? He couldn't even tell, too used to pulling all nighters
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He took a deep breath, stretching his body to wake it up from the impromptu slumber

The rain has let out, leaving a bright day behind, even without the sun. A flower must have bloomed nearby, the buzzing scent mixed with the rain was tickling his nose.
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It other words, this was a wonderful day to enjoy, especially with your love, if they hadn't packed their bags and left that is

Izuku sat up from the bench. It must have been 12:55 since the alarm rang just a few seconds ago. He wanted to get every second of sleep he could get
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before heading out. It's going to be a long day otherwise

He washed his face on the drinking fountain nearby and while doing so, he noticed how he feels warmer than he's suppose to feel "great, what a start"
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And this was also the moment he realised he hadn't packed a gift or perhaps some flowers from the upcoming "lunch" and if he were to get it now, he's sure to be late

"Oh come on" it appears his bad luck is yet to run out. But he wouldn't blame everything on luck. He
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has been quite terrible and sloppy human being in the last 48 hours

" I'll make it up to you kacchan….I promise"

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He once again stood next to Katsuki's door but this time knocked louder than his manners would approve

It must be all right since He heard stuffing on the other side right away
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The door opened with Mitsuki standing Infront. Masaru must have kept his promise since she didn't look surprised by his presence but judging it nonetheless

"Nice to meet you mom" Izuku bowed. There was something about her glare that made him nervous
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Mitsuki snorted, leaving the door open for Izuku but she hardly looked amused or happy

Izuku followed her inside, patting his clothes and hair to make sure he was presentable both physically and mentally

" Here it goes"
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He walked inside.The first person he saw was Katsuki, sitting on the dining table.

Relief flooded through Izuku's heart. He knew she was here but seeing with his own eyes was a different thing. It's a shame the feeling wasn't mutual since the first thing katsuki do was frown
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"Hi kacchan" Izuku offered anyway, in hopes of some sort of reply even when katsuki looked at as if she wanted to murder him in 11 different languages

" Did you guys bring him to take me back"
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katsuki asked her father calmly, leaving Izuku simply standing there, holding onto his bag

"Oh no no dear, that's not-"

" It's your father's idea, DON'T LUMP ME IN IT" mitsuki yelled from the kitchen, still stirring what Izuku think is stew by the smell
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" Is my presence that annoying to you? Do you want me to leave? I have people I can go to"

" Dear that's not it"

" Kacchan I came here on my own" Izuku had to say something instead of standing there, being a waste of space.
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He had put masaru in a messy situation just by coming here and he would at least not let him take the blame "can we talk?"

" Say whatever fuck you wanna say"

" Can we go somewhere a little .. private?"

" Why? you wanna yell at me again?"
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Izuku went silent. He doesn't even recall yelling at her let alone the words he may have been used "kacchan i-"

He didn't finish those words, he couldn't.

Instead he just stood there, staring at katsuki
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" Izuku" Her father gave him a tight smile, pulling him dazed mind out" why don't you freshen up and we can eat. You must be hungry"

"S-Sure" Izuku looked down. He didn't need to freshen up but he went anyway.
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It's not the words that got him speechless, it's how /sad/ katsuki looked while saying

She have known Izuku her whole life, she can tell things Izuku he himself couldn't think of

And Right now, standing Infront of the mirror, Izuku dreaded the man he might have become
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Tbc
( Extremely short I know but hey I'm alive 😅)
I'm back on writing
It's just things got overwhelming after I moved out and started uni and stuff
So yeah- next update would be soon
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Izuku left the bathroom to join the family, with an anxious heart cowering in the fear of what to come.

He thought all he did was leave the home for uncertain amount of time, after of course yelling at his wife but now
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he's questioning if his mistake might be more rooted than that

He wiped his wet face with his sleeve when he spotted the table right around the corner. He did had freshen up like his father in law requested but didn't bother to wipe off the excess water with towel or something
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How he wished the walk from bathroom to table was longer, giving him a chance of thinking clearly or maybe bracing himself for whatever he's about to hear but at the same time, he just wants everything to be over with. So he can go back home, to katsuki,
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to everything how it used to be

"Hello" he greeted the family once again with a smile plastering his face, taking his seat beside katsuki
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He noticed how the food was already served. When he left for the bathroom, Masaru was still tidying up the table. Either they work too fast or he had spent awful amount of time in the bathroom
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Izuku glanced at Katsuki but she had her face downcast. He can hardly see the expression she might be making

He chewed on his bottom lip. It must be tough for her, being in this stage and thinking of a family where the father is missing from the picture.
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Izuku can't blame her if the fleeting possibility flashed through her mind. Gosh Izuku was so caught up about being a father, he forgot to be a husband
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" It's getting cold, son"

Izuku flinched. He didn't realize he was staring at his soup,

" Right, right, sorry" he gave his father a tight smile and grabbed the spoon to take a spoonful. He blew at it before putting it in his mouth
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and started coughing like crazy right away

The first and the only thing he registered was how spicy it was. No it's not 'i like spicy food' kind of Hot, it was 'as if someone accidentally emptied the entire bottle of chili powder on his soup' kind of hot
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" You okay Izuku?" Masaru got up to get him a glass of water but Izuku was more focused on warning Katsuki about the spice level. This level of spiciness shouldn't be okay for a pregnant lady. right?
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But katsuki was there- slurping down the soup like it's no one's business. Come to think of it- her soup looks plain too- it's as if only izuku's soup is this red

/Oh/ it only took a moment for Izuku to realize what had happened, only a moment before he turned towards
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his mother in-law and saw her with the biggest grin a person can wear.

Mitsuki snorted the moment Izuku made eye contact. She pointed her spoon at izuku and with the most loving voice said " I have made it just for you! Eat up my /son/"
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Izuku stared for a few seconds before muttering a small "right" and taking another sip while keeping a constant eye contact with her.

If he hadn't been feeling pathetic about his existence, he would have cursed this woman from earth to hell.
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But in the self loathing state his mind, he only accepted this as a form of a punishment he deserves

At least his mother in-law will be in a better mood, right?
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"It's delicious" Izuku choked out the words, eyes watering and mouth burning

" Are you sure you're okay?" Masaru gave him a concerned look. Honestly, he's the only one in this room who feels like he cares
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" Yeap!" Izuku chirped with a bright smile on his face. And for some reason, He glanced at Katsuki while doing so.

He wonders what was he even expecting from her
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The lunch started to get awkward from that point. Masaru kept looking at his family members, anxious to the core- Izuku could tell. His mother in-law looks neutral but she had always been hard to read and then there was Izuku -who was going back and forth
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whether he should talk to katsuki now or wait for a chance to talk behind closed doors

But his indecisiveness along with the lunch were cut short the next moment when katsuki pushed her bowl- still almost full- away and stood up
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" I can't.. FUCKING take this anymore" she panted and started to walk away before anyone even utter any word

it's not like anyone wanted to speak anything to right away anyway- giving her some lone time like she probably was looking for- except
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maybe the sick part of Izuku's head who kept screaming /this was this chance to talk/

" I'll go after her," Izuku told her parents, who only sat there, upset. They knew this would happen, they just wondered / when/
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Izuku followed Katsuki towards her room. With a belly like that, she wasn't hard to catch up with but Izuku was more occupied with why she was so unbothered about Izuku.
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Maybe she wanted the talk just as much as Izuku wanted it? Maybe she had something she wanted to confirm? Either way, Izuku felt uncharacteristically numb about the situation
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Right now, in the middle of her room, with door locked behind them, Izuku watched the love of his life stroke her tummy- sitting on the edge of the bed

"Izuku" Katsuki turned her eyes away from the window to look at him "Just tell me one thing" her voice was soft,
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as if they carried too much burden on it "Do you regret it? The baby?"

Izuku's forehead wrinkled up. Even when he had expected this question, it still caught him off guard

" Um n -no. Never"
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" Why did you hesitate just now?" Katsuki tilted her head to the side, wrapping her arms around her stomach, eyes almost pleading " be honest with me Izuku.

Do you regret it?"
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Tbc

The last and final update will be up on next Friday ( thanks for your patience 🥺🥺)
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I'm sorry I said I would do it at Friday but Ramadan started and I got too exhausted to write anything

I'll post it this week
Promise
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Izuku stood there, eyes flattering, mouth open like a gaping fish, mumbling a low " it's not like that"

Because, truthfully, it's not. It's not like he ever thought it through if he regretted having a baby? The thought or possibly never even Crossed his mind and honestly,
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Who even thinks like that!

The thought of having a family with katsuki fills him with joy and happiness like he had never experienced before. It's like starting a new chapter in life
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but when he realised he have to play a part and how big of a impact he'll leave on someone else's self esteem, view or /life/- he gets anxious and scared like he had never experienced before as well

And that's where the frustration begins
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" Don't just fucking stand there" katsuki huffed, eyes narrowed " SAY something"

Izuku looked at katsuki. She may look angry and raging but he can tell she's getting frustrated by second and eagerly waiting for an answer, any answer.
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It's already hard for her to even hold this conversation,giving izuku's sorry self a Chance to explain himself before she takes matter in her own hand and be done with what needs to be done

And Izuku knows for a fact, she'll be the greatest mother one can be-with or without him
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around but-

" I want to be there " he clenched his first, might as well start grovelling right now " I picture myself in the family, happy and smiling and h-having fun but- "
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Izuku took a deep breath, his head for feeling light and dizzy- failing miserably to put his thoughts in form of words but if he doesn't lets out now, he'll never get the chance again, he'll never get the chance to be clear and be on the same terms with katsuki
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But the feelings and emotions he will hold back, will linger on and little by little will crush the little happy family of his dream

" but whenever I try to think of the stuff I need to do or to prepare, everything feels like a mess. I don't know what to do or how to even have
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control over my self, let alone someone else-"

I'm scared" Izuku hung his head low " what if I mess up? What if I turn into some trashy useless - good for nothing- loser…. father "
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Izuku pressed his lips into a thin line. There's no way to undo his mistake if he were to slip even just for once " I wish I was even half the awesome as you"

Izuku looked to his sides, eyes burning.
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Perhaps he was so drowned in self pity he didn't even notice katsuki coming right Infront of him until her head smashed against him

" Ouch"

" Does it look like I fucking know what to do " katsuki grabbed his collar, forcing him to look her in the eye
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" does it look like someone gave me a damn manual on how to be mom" katsuki hissed "but that doesn't mean I can take the frustration on you and just leave you to feel miserable"

Izuku's breath hitched. He can't tell if he's happy or even more depressed after hearing those words
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But if there's one thing Izuku is Sure- that he had treated Katsuki poorly, very poorly in last two days

He got on his knees to finally apologize like he should have long ago, as if that would magically solve the situation that's Infront of them
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Katsuki smacked off the collar she was holding to walk away, to put some distance in between them

" I don't want some stupid apologies and shit" she spoke, pressing her fingers against her eyes, even before Izuku would open his mouth,
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she gasped " I don't even care about that now"

Her lips wobbled, anger in her face but fear prominent in her eyes

And it was all izuku's fault
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" We're supposed to figure things out as we go" Katsuki's voice felt shaky, " help each other to understand, correct each other from making a mistake. Just be fucking there-" her voice lost its strength, standing right above a whisper
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" I'm sorry" Izuku stood up, begging to touch katsuki, hold her close " I'm sorry. I promise I won't do this again"

" Dumb fuck, you think I will be happy forcing you into a relationship where just the thought of it makes you break down "
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she sounded as if the frustration boiled into a breaking point

" I don't- just" katsuki turned around once again, facing the bed " just tell me one thing"
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Izuku knows what she wants to know. Katsuki may act like she doesn't care about others but deep down Izuku knows how much she loves him. Even after yelling at her and practically leaving her behind, she's still thinking about izuku's feelings.
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Where she's been considere and caring in full pregnancy and hormones, Izuku has only been a nasty husband- covering behind for the fear of responsibility that's not even here yet
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Izuku got up to lightly press his forehead against katsuki's shoulder, afraid that she'll pull away

" I'm / not/ leaving my family no matter what"

At the end of the day, that's all that should matter- right? Izuku is adamant to stay, regardless his inner turmoil
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Maybe Katsuki is right. Maybe Izuku did regret having a baby. Maybe He wants to run and hide like he wouldn't ever have to face this anymore. It's not like the baby was entirely planned but they were aware and very much sobar about what the fuck they were doing
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But regardless, Izuku knows, he knows that if he walks out now- knowing he had his chance of having his family with the person he loves most, but blew it because of the insecurities rooted in his own mind- he'll be killing himself for it for the rest of his life
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" It was a moment of sadness, frustration, maybe bitterness and and- I don't even know but it was so heavy to bear. I was upset at my incompetence, own frustration and insecurities that I can't raise a child well or they would hate me for something I did. I didn't mean to take it
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out on you but yet I did" Izuku paused, closing his eyes shut

Can he hug katsuki? Can he just wrap his arms around till he hears her heartbeat soothing down to sync with his
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" I never had a father around in my childhood. And I never realized how much I actually hated it" 

It would have been so much easier if he grew up in a loving family that never knew what sadness is
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" I may become a lousy ass loser father but I'll still never let my own child experience something I did"
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/ you had such a great mom/ a part of him mind replayed the conversation with his father in law , making him feel like everything is only in his head and there's no need to be scared. Showing him the possibility that maybe he'll be someone nice enough
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But he pushed his every other thought away to gently hold katsuki.

There will be no family to love it his only family were to leave him now
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He wants to make things clear with her, he wants to come clear where he stands and where he wants to go

But katsuki didn't reply nor hug back. She remained stiff and silent
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Izuku don't blame her for the way she's feeling right now. Neither will he make excuses. He did her wrong and he'll gladly accepts whatever she asks him to do as a apology

But to his surprise " you're warm" is what katsuki replied
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"I might be running a fever"Izuku pressed his forehead on her exposed neck. Her neck is ice cold,feeling incredibly calming against his burning skin"the weather got me"

"Been here since yesterday?"

"Kind of"

"Oh"why does voice sounds so small yet so peaceful"you should rest"
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Izuku didn't want to lift his face up to look at katsuki. Is she tired of the conversation- want to change topic or want to think things through?

Is she running away like Izuku or giving Izuku time to prepare himself mentally?
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Or she's actually worried about Izuku's health and just wants a quiet moment together? Like how things used to, without the complications

" You should take care of the body more"
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Izuku? He's both physically and mentally exhausted, doesn't even know how high his fever is and anything decent to eat. But still, the only thing in his mind is taking his family back home

The stress and anxiety of the situation kept him in edge, if he lets himself relax for a
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second now, he'll pass out

" Talk for yourself- You shouldn't really bang your head like that" Izuku spoke, trying hard to crack a smile " It's not good for the baby"

" I already know how much / you/ care for the baby" katsuki mocked and Izuku went completely silent
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" Kacchan" Izuku said firmly, still shocked if he heard her right

She doesn't mean that. There's no way he would agree that katsuki means it

She's just hurt and the pregnancy hormones are making it worse. That's it!
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" I'll prove it to you" that's all Izuku have to say

" Rest" katsuki walked away from his embrace and Izuku let her without picking up another word

Katsuki asked him to sit on her bed and rest till she take care of the business downstairs
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" Don't worry, I won't leave you here and went off somewhere" and with the line, she was out of the room

Izuku fell face first on the pillow, muffing his groan

He doesn't have the right to be hurt by those words
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Tbc

Sorry for taking a actual month to update
Have a 2k words update in exchange
( The ending is already done, I won't keep you waiting at all, I'll update it just after editing it) 🧡💚
Thanks for your patience
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Izuku blinked, taking in the darkness around him

He must have fallen asleep waiting for katsuki to come back, in the Mercy of exhausting

He shifted in his position to rummage for a clock. He can tell it's late, if the pitch black room was enough of a sign,he wants to know how
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long he was out for

His hand hit something wet, judging from the shape a bowl of water

" What the" Izuku sat up, who keeps water like this in the nightstand. come to think of it, there's something on his forehead as well
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Izuku pulled on the damp clothes off his forehead. It didn't take him long to realize it was because of his fever and that someone must have been changing them every often

Izuku looked at the said culprit, sleeping beside him- back facing Izuku. His expression softened
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the moment he saw her in the same bed

Is this why Katsuki went downstairs? Is this why Izuku slept so peacefully for hours until his stomach decided it was enough rest
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Izuku leaned forward, towards Katsuki to hold her, see her beautiful face - away from all stress and emotions of the day.

There was an odd calmness, a peaceful feeling in the moment. Izuku would do so much to see her only be amidst happiness
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Izuku dragged his hand on her stomach, big and full, and rested his head pressed atop her.
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He stroked her belly, closing his eyes. For the first time today, his chest felt tight. The fear of losing someone sinking in and each drop squeezed every emotions out of Izuku, mind blank yet so heavy

" Don't leave me alone "
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Izuku whispered, pressing his face on her hair " I'll never take you for granted ever again. I promise you'll never get the chance to complain ever again- just… just don't take my everything away from me"
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Izuku leaned on katsuki's shoulder, hugging her tighter, wanting to cuddle her as tight as possible " I know you can hear me kacchan" Izuku gently slide his fingers on her cheek, urging her to look at him " Please"
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Katsuki opened her eyes slowly and looked at Izuku with a fondness he begged the gods to have

"You don't ..want this"

"I do,I do.I'm stupid and I don't know what's good for me.I make rush decisions,mess up everything and that's why I need you.That's why I need my family with me
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" Izuku"

" I'm staying kacchan". I want to stay. I want to watch them grow, live, I want to be part of it. Please let me Kanchan"

" But what if" Katsuki shook her head
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" what if halfway, you suddenly decide that it's not for you. What if you wanna quit then? How am I going to manage the kid? If you're doing this /now/ in such early state -"
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" Kacchan" Izuku touched her cheek " you trust me with your life, I know you do. Just trust me on this one last time. These nasty feelings I'm feeling, I'll never let you go through it" he paused, realization something and added " again"
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" I wanna believe you" katsuki chuckled " fuck, I wanna believe you so bad"

But a / but/ was so prominent in her tone
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Katsuki didn't voice it. She's a person of her actions, she turned towards Izuku instead and let him completely engulf her into a embrace, face right against his heart

It's not that she's at a loss of words or doesn't know how to phrase her emotions, Izuku knows it's because
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Katsuki is confused. She's confused at what her next step should be.

Her life is not for just person anymore, every decision will affect a innocent child, shaping them for the world
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And the silence is what Izuku needed. He'll show her…..hopefully

" I'm sorry I yelled at you earlier and sorry that I left you alone like that " Izuku shifted the topic, stopping her mind from spiralling any further
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katsuki was so far along that it was extreme stupid decision from izuku's side to leave her behind without a way to communicate but then again he left her because she was far along-
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Izuku winched at his own thoughts, he really wants to slap himself for thinking like this

Katsuki chuckled " you're not getting off the hook that easily"

Izuku pressed his forehead against hers " I'll buy you the baby shoes you saw. Those golden ones"

"I could do that myself"
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" Then I'll rub your feet. " Izuku planted a small kiss on her forehead as he watched Katsuki close her eyes. For the first time in the day, tears blurred his eyes, overwhelming happiness washing over him

" You'll do that anyway"
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" Then I'll bring you lots of food" what was the food she was craving again?

Katsuki let out a small laugh " the only person who needs food is you. Your stomach has been growling non stop"
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" Eeek" Izuku didn't even notice! " I'm not that hungry" even though he had eaten nothing the entire day " You don't have to get up "

" Who said I was gonna get your food"

" O-oh" Izuku figured she would get his food since it's her house.
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But if this is the case " then I would rather hold you close"

"Sap" Katsuki jammed her finger on Izuku's chest, getting him off her with each push. And when he was far off, she abruptly get off the bed
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" You shouldn't get up that fast, you okay. It's not good for the baby" Izuku got up to eye her movement

" You should be the last person to tell me anything about my baby"
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" Hey , you just promised you'll gimme a chance!"

" I didn't promise you shit" katsuki left the room and head straight to the kitchen with a Izuku tailing behind
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" I'm just gonna feed you some cat food or maybe poison"

" You don't even have cat" he pouted before taking a seat

" Just poison then"

" Do it, kill me /if/ you can"

No, this fight is not like before. It's different, Izuku can feel the ease in between each empty threats
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Katsuki slammed a sandwich Infront of Izuku "
One poison free sandwich, unfortunately"

" Thanks for not killing me"

she shrugged " and after you're done, we're going back home"

" It's like 2 am right now"
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Katsuki grinned " exactly. Now you'll know how I felt. And you're carrying the bags of course, and maybe me too, if I like it"

Katsuki flipped him off while Izuku took a bite off the sandwich

Still, It feels like he won something
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The end 💚🧡

Thanks for your patience
Hope you liked it
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And please help me if you can
- does this fic requires a angsty tag? Like I want to tag properly in ao3
Minor angsty? ( With happy ending ofc)
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