For years I was completely detached from life.

I called it: being on my spaceship.

How I Got Out Of Dissociation:

I feel into a pattern of dissociating at a young age. I would look like I was there, but I was lost in my my mind. Numb. And a million miles away.

It wasn't until my partner said to me "are you really here?" when I realized my lack of presence was known.

I'd always wondered why I lacked memories.

I had almost no memories of my childhood and when friends brought up things I just couldn't remember the way they did.

At one point I thought I had a rare brain disorder (no joke.)

Finally, I started studying functional freeze. Most people have heard of fight or flight. Freeze when our body becomes dissociated to stay safe.

We're physically present but mentally gone.

Getting out of my dissociated state meant pattern interruptions. Getting out of autopilot...

I started a morning routine of journaling.

Next, I created a conscious check in. One time of day where I was fully in my body. Nothing all smells, sounds, and sensations around me. I had to teach myself it was safe to be in the moment. I still teach this 7 years later in @selfhealerscirc

Next, I prioritized sleep and nutrition. I put myself to bed really and woke up early. We're more likely dissociate when our body is low on resources. Which is why sleep and nutrition are key in healing this pattern.

If you dissociate, you're not alone. You do not have a disorder. Your body its trying to protect you.

You can come out of the frozen state and start to live again with small steps every day.

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