“you have your father’s eyes” they tell him and little a-zhan preened at the revelation. he had never met his father before but heard a few tales of the esteemed qingheng jun of gusu.
to be compared to him felt like an honour but it seemed like that his mother thought otherwise
“you’re not like him, a-zhan,” she told him then, “i don’t want you to be like him”
he never understood what she meant but after that day, mother couldn’t meet his eyes without a hint of desolation swaying in hers.
no matter what he did, he couldn’t rip that pain away from her
he never understood what she meant but after that day, mother couldn’t meet his eyes without a hint of desolation swaying in hers.
no matter what he did, he couldn’t rip that pain away from her
so, he decided then, at seven years old, as he kneeled in front of a door which would never open, that being compared to his father is something he detests
a-zhan became lan wangji but his decision remained same.
he doesn’t want to be his father
a-zhan became lan wangji but his decision remained same.
he doesn’t want to be his father
he then met wwx, who made his chest ache weirdly, that he found himself wavering
“brother, i want to take someone back to the cloud recesses,” he said once, “take him back… and hide him somewhere”
lwj would never forget the ghastly look on lxc’s face that day
“brother, i want to take someone back to the cloud recesses,” he said once, “take him back… and hide him somewhere”
lwj would never forget the ghastly look on lxc’s face that day
‘i failed’
‘i failed you, mother’
‘i failed him too’
lwj kneels in the ancestral hall, as the discipline whip makes contact with his body and leave shameful scars in its wake
“look at him,” an elder grunts, “siding with evil and betraying his sect”
“just like his father”
‘i failed you, mother’
‘i failed him too’
lwj kneels in the ancestral hall, as the discipline whip makes contact with his body and leave shameful scars in its wake
“look at him,” an elder grunts, “siding with evil and betraying his sect”
“just like his father”
“no” lwj says, though his voice comes out as a whisper
“w-what did you say?” one of the elders dares him to talk
“no,” he speaks a little louder this time, “i’m not my father”
“i’ll show you” lwj says, with a new resolution in his eyes before his body gives away with a thud
“w-what did you say?” one of the elders dares him to talk
“no,” he speaks a little louder this time, “i’m not my father”
“i’ll show you” lwj says, with a new resolution in his eyes before his body gives away with a thud
thirteen years later, when wwx comes back, he stands by his side
this time, he doesn’t ask him to come back but simply remains content with the idea of being around him
he will not cage wwx. he will not dim his light. he will not clip his wings
lwj will not be his father
this time, he doesn’t ask him to come back but simply remains content with the idea of being around him
he will not cage wwx. he will not dim his light. he will not clip his wings
lwj will not be his father
umm what did i just write🥹
i always felt like lwj had a complicated opinion about his father and my brain just came up with this lil idea
if there’s any errors, as always, ignore them
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i always felt like lwj had a complicated opinion about his father and my brain just came up with this lil idea
if there’s any errors, as always, ignore them
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